Sikona Mihabashi (sikona) wrote,
Sikona Mihabashi

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I hate my mind.

Had a REALLY shitty day at work. The very thought of leaving the house to go to work was making me physically sick to my stomach, and it wasn't much better when I got there. MASSIVE computer errors disrupting me constantly, causing me to reboot SEVEN times today. >_< And people were not pleasant. I realized today that I just don't give a fuck about them or that place anymore. And it's funny, because Danny gave me three months until I started hanging up on people and shit, and it was three months today, and he's right... I just don't care. I'm not hanging up on people or anything... but I think I'm going to apply at the libraries and such sooner rather than later. Not in a rush to quit... but you know. It never hurts to look for a better job. ^^ Who knows? The rest of the week might be great and I'll wonder what my problem was. ^^

Okay, I watched that damn clip from my last entry at least 15 times, and I was thinking about it during the slow times at work. I was thinking about my dolls, and how I was right about all the guys being the aggressors.

Jean-Claude is constantly going after Blair and Natalie.
Ethan is corrupting Azami.
Kyosuke rescues Hannah.
And Brishen and Nimeth are just fuckbuddies. I don't get how their lack of a relationship works. XDD

And I was thinking, god, how incredibly one sided that is. T_T I was thinking of the guy in the clip, how strong he was, and determined not to be with the female dancer, but he was always there to catch her. You could see him despairing at being caught by her gentleness. How he was trying to remain aloof and distant.

And then it hit me. It's SHONE, and his fucking wife. >_< XDDD Shone, who was pretty much never allowed a chance to be on my doll list, the Dollish U-me, or Dollshe Saint, something along those lines. With his short black hair, volks metalic blue eyes, and his damn coldness, only being thawed by the one woman who never gave up, and stuck by him despite his better judgement. Pino's dad, and Kyosuke's brother-in-law.

I'm falling for him more and more as I keep thinking about it. T_T

Damn you, So You Think You Can Dance! T_T XD

The problem is, IF Shone got added to the list (And he's NOT going to be. He can stand outside the door and pound on it all he wants, he's not getting added to the list of characters!), what the hell do I do about his wife? She was supposed to have died not too long after Pino was born, and that's what made him turn into the emotionless frostman he is today, and the reason Pino grew up at her grandparent's temple. Would his wife only exist in flashback photostories? I wouldn't want a doll for so little plot, and I'd feel weird having her near the other dolls, since she's, you know, dead.

So now I have this couple I DON'T want to buy knocking at the door in my brain, when they're frankly impossible, and it's driving me nuts. T_T Not to mention I love the SD16 body for him, and I don't know of a head that'd match it. T_T

But oh, how I love frowny, pouty dolls, and this would be an excuse for one. It's just my luck that all my assholes have to be smiley, when I have a weak spot for frowners. Shakes fist at uncooperative, grinning characters
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