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Tuesday, December 25th, 2007
7:36 pm - Merry Christmas. ^^
I hope everyone's having a good holiday, whatever it may be. ^^ I had a pretty good one, even though I spent christmas eve alone. XP My parents were upstairs, and they go to sleep pretty early, but my brother's sleep schedual was all screwed around, so he went to bed around 5pm last night. So... no holiday movies and company for Kona. XP

We had lots of yummy food and such today. ^^ Although I'm not a fan of traditional turkey dinners, there was enough other stuff to make up for it. ^^ We had crab cakes and a shrimp ring, cold smoked salmon spread and a hot crab dip, all sorts of crackers and cheeses, breaded mozzarella sticks and jalapeno poppers, mini quiche, and all sorts of these yummy puff pastry things with feta, spinach, portobello, artichoke, and all sorts of other yummy fillings. ^^ And for dessert, we had shortbreads, fudge, sweet maries, and chocolate walnut bars. ^^

I'm such a food nut. XD

And now for the obligitory materialistic gift post. XD

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I just wish I had some apple cider. XD

The Neverending Story is on BBCK right now... god, I love this movie. XD

Anyways, that's it for now. I hope everyone had a safe and happy holiday. Try not to trample, or be trampled tomorrow during boxing day stuff, guys. XP It's gonna be brutal at work... I wish I had it off. T_T I should know tomorrow if I have new years off, so I'll be posting that info on the local doll board, and maybe here. I know I'm bringing the skor bar trifle to the party, but I'm also thinking a homemade salsa con queso dip, or cracked black pepper and cheese puffs. With this new appetizer cookbook, I can't decide. XD

current mood: content

(6 Wings | Fly Away)

Thursday, November 15th, 2007
1:17 am - Bpal lists
Most of my friendslist is rather familliar with Bpal, but I'll explain for the few who aren't. Basically, it's a perfume website. http://www.blackphoenixalchemylab.com/ They have some really awesome sounding scents, and some really crazy sounding ones. The thing that grabbed my attention the most was that they had alot of odd scents formulated to evoke some sort of imagery, be it a christmas myth, a haunted house, or a certain character from a book. I found that really nifty, so I took a look through the website. Also, I have a lot of friends that talk about it constantly, which makes it hard to keep away from.

I'm really bad at picking out scents that I like just from the description, though. T_T I love Issey Miyake's A Drop on a Petal, but I have no clue what it smells like. XD;;; I know I tend to like florals more than spice/musk/herbal scents, I like teas, "ocean" or "water" smells, sometimes citrus smells, and sometimes food scents (but not too often, as I find I get sick of them). I also tend to like smells that make me think of blue or green. (But not in a mint, pine, or grass way.)

So yeah. Most likely I'm going to tackle people who live near me who have scents I want to smell and sniff them. XDD I made a list of what perfumes at Bpal I'm most interested in, just so I can keep track of them. Not even all of them are things I'd even be interested in wearing... just curious as to how they smell. XD

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current mood: sick

(19 Wings | Fly Away)

Monday, November 12th, 2007
3:06 pm - Kinda bored, so...
... Thought I'd put up the answers from that meme I did two months ago. XD Yeah, so here's all the answers from that "Guess the song by the first lyrics" meme, and links to their music videos on YouTube, in case you are bored, as well. XDD All videos are linked, not embeded.

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current mood: bored

(Fly Away)

Friday, October 12th, 2007
11:46 pm - So it was a little longer than I had planned...
... before I wrote a real update. Sorry. ^^;;;

I guess I've stepped into hermitage again. I don't call people, I've eschewed IMs and Gaia... about the only things I do online is the international and local doll forums, and read people's LJs. I try to keep abreast of those, although even that lacks sometimes when I'm particularly tired. T_T

Home sick today. Cramps, nausea, sore back, headache. And unrelated, sore hands from dropping a chair on one and cutting the other on a shampoo bottle, and sore feet from stupidly wearing high heels when taking the bus... blisters on the bottom of my feet now. T_T Also, woke up hyperventilating from some dream I don't remember. O_o; Here's hoping I feel better tomorrow... I didn't want to call in sick this week because then I'd have earned a lieu day I could have used to get a doll meet off of work, but I just felt too icky. T_T Completely off of food right now, too, especially meat. And I love meat. TT__TT

Hate my job, of course, and really would like to quit. But, not gonna until I have a call that makes me snap, or I find a new job. (Sorry to be such a downer today. XD;;; ) I guess... it all seems rather futile? I used to have dreams of things I wanted to do, but I've been more practical lately. Why am I working? So I can go back to school. I hated school. I'll probably hate it again. And even if I do go to school and finish school, what am I going to do? Probably some job that I'll end up hating. Honestly, I just kinda want to be left alone to learn about things that I find interesting in my own way at my own pace, for the rest of my life. Is that too much to ask?

Yeah, it is. XDDD

But yeah... if I was as dissapointed in a relationship as I am in life in general, I'd have dumped the bastard long ago.

I can just see that. "Yeah... Life? It's not you, it's me. I think we should see alternate realities." Talk about a messy breakup - I can't picture life taking that well. Existance would probably be able to throw one hell of a fit.


I think I'm going to buy this pretty necklace and earring set I saw. Each piece has a rather large pearl, with a silver vine crawling up it, and I think there was little diamonds on the leaves. I need some new jewlery... the stuff I have is nice enough, but nothing really special. I don't really have anything to wear on fancy ocassions. I'd also like a nice garnet ring, and a new peridot ring... the one I have now is yellow gold, and I hate yellow gold. >_< I'd also been eyeing some Vivienne stuff... mainly a belt (which is now out of stock T_T ) and the knuckle guard ring, which I see anyotherknight has... glad to see it on someone, as the pictures kinda had me baffled on how it was worn. XDD There's also several pairs of earing I'd give someone's left nut for (no one in mind, really), but they're all out of stock.


I have messages for a number of people, which are all rather late, sorry. ^^; Part of the hermit thing. ^^;;;

anyotherknight, did you get any of my messages about that local doll show east of me? Are you interested in comming? We've been saving a seat for you in one of the cars in case you wanted to come, and you're welcome to come down early and spend the night before here, like darthmarysue is. Slumber party FTW! We could play the Gackt game. XDD Hope you can come! <3

Also, to anyotherknight, little_finch, Sheena, darthmarysue, viewpoints, and sundry others - my friend Lee is having a birthday/halloween party, and you're invited. Sorry to leave it to such short notice... that's my hermity fault. ^^; For those who are bad with names, that's my squeaky, overly kind, barbie collecting, camera loving, interior designing friend. Here are the details:

The Date: Saturday, Oct. 20th, 2007
The Time: Anytime, most likely after 6pm until the following day. (Thats right like always its a sleep over, so come prepared)
The Place: My home
The Conditions:
Dress up in any fictional characters (aka, this means you dress us in a costume, not your own clothes)
Please bring sleeping equipment, pillows, blankets and the such...
You are welcome to bring your own food and drinks, small appetizers will be provided by me.
Remember games, for wii, xbox 360, etc....
Expect to see fireworks, sparklers, glow sticks or some facsimile of all.


She hopes to see any and all of you, but of course understands that it's a long trip in a busy month, and I've left it really short notice, so yeah. ^^;;;;; As to me, I work 3pm-12am that day, so depending on my shift the next day, I most likely will not be able to make it. T_T



Hmmm.... What else? Still heckling paypal to get things sorted out. Want to buy leeke sandals for Blair, god damn it, and a number of other things. Like Ethan and Azami. XD I want to put up a want to buy thread for them, but think I should wait on that until I have things straightened out. I mean, they're pretty rare, and I don't really want to get them until dec-mar, but on the off chance that someone would have one available immediately, it just wouldn't be good buisness to not be able to pay them immediately. But yeah... if any of you guys see a KazeKidz (Kaye Wiggs) Matilda (Either whole, head, or body, light skin or BW), or an Elfdoll Red Special (Head, whole, or fullset), I'd really appriciate being made aware of it.

Persona 3 taunts me with me being too fat to cosplay all the beautiful skanky costumes. T_T Current cosplay interests - xxxHolic, random Mitsukazu Mihara stuff, Persona 2, Persona 3. Lucky Star. >_>;;;

Too tired to think of more to say (Sorry for the long, un lj cut entry as it is - it's my first entry in a while, so indulge me, svp). So, I'll just end this with a pic of Blair. Sorry I haven't taken more pics of him... been too busy. Got his hat, thanks to Scuzz, and she made him an awesome messenger bag, too. ^^ The hat hides how awful his wig is! XDD So enjoy, and I'll try to post more often. ^^; Hope to see most of you soon! ^^



current mood: sleepy

(4 Wings | Fly Away)

Tuesday, September 18th, 2007
10:13 pm - I never do memes, but this was too interesting. ^^
Taken from mekou's LJ, because I liked it. ^^


Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play.
Step 2: Write down the first line from the first 20 songs that play or close to it. (Random songs and random lines. Make it more fun. XD)
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.


I'm personally editing the non-english titles out. Very few of my friendslist are fluent enough in japanese/chinese/korean/swedish/whatever to have random lines of songs memorizes. I'm also only doing the first lines of the song. (Unless the first lines are part of the chorus as well, or the title is in the first line.)


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1. "If I told you a secret, you won't tell a soul / Will you hold it and keep it alive"
2. "I reached inside myself and found / nothing there to ease the pressure of my ever-worrying mind"
3. "Was an honest man / Asked me for the phone / Tried to take control"
4. "In the shadows of tall buildings / Of fallen angels on the ceilings"
5. "Taffy stuck and tongue-tied / Stutter shook and up-tight"
6. "Girl, don't push too hard / I'll break, you see / I'm not that far" (No one will EVER get that one. XDD)
7. "I like to play the drums / I think I'm getting good but I can handle criticism"
8. "Yes this is the campaign / Slithered entrails / In the cargo bay"
9. "Mary-ann and Wanda were the best of friends / All through their high school days"
10. "Spring starts when a heartbeat's poundin' / When the birds can be heard above the reckoning carts"
11. "WHY DO THEY ALWAYS SEND THE POOR! / Barbarisms by Barbaras / With pointed heels"
12. "If you want to know how / To fly high, then go now"
13. "Still don’t know what I was lookin for / And my time was running wild"
14. "Then we'll have a dance, yeah a dance, on the head of a pin / And God will grin and shoo us away"
15. "Tonight we're the sea and the salty breeze"
16. "Its close to midnight and something evils lurking in the dark"
17. "A love struck Romeo / Sings the streets a serenade"
18. "Okay, I'm riding around in this car / With this woman I propose to a couple times a week"
19. "Feel the vibe feel the terror feel the pain / it's driving me insane"
20. "She gave you everything she had / But she was young and dumb - she just turned 21"


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What I've learned from this meme? I need to stop downloading songs other people recommend, I need to delete songs downloaded just for use in Masquerade skits, and I need to sweep through my playlist and delete everything I don't like. XD There's between 5-7 songs listed there I wouldn't have skipped through normally. XD


Might make a real post later tonight. This week, definately. I miss people so much, but I just hate talking on the computer after working all day with morons on the comp. T_T

current mood: okay

(19 Wings | Fly Away)

Saturday, August 18th, 2007
9:51 pm - Camera help?
I have a bunch of camera geeks on my friendslist, so time to hit up for advice. XDD

First, sorry I haven't been able to respond to comments or chat with people. Been really drained and tired, and not online much. I haven't even had a chance to say welcome back to Kuro yet. T_T So welcome back, Kuro! XD <33 I was going to PM you about birthday gathering last weekend to see if you wanted to come, but I figured you might just want to spend your first day back with your family. I understand some people like to do things like that. O_o XDD (Enjoy family? What an alien concept. XD) And Rin, no worries, I got your message, but didn't want to call back and bug you since you sounded so busy. We'll hang out another time. Same goes for you, Octune. Aparently there's a new japanese/chinese restaurant near your parent's place... we'll have to try it sometime. ^^ And DarthMarySue, I'm on the third book. Oh, how I love demon babies and gender confusion issues making romance awkward. XDD

So... back to camera stuff. My parents got me a camera to my birthday, which was kinda shocking, as it's really not something I was expecting, as I was content with my current camera. I found that the camera had a distressing lack of information included with it, and te online reviews I read didn't really sound like it was appropriate for my uses. We'll be returning it tomorrow (though I warned the parents that after getting more info, I might just end up getting the same damn one, who knows. XDD)

So the camera they got me was a olympus fe-210... the reviews I read mentioned that it had problems with darkness in the corners of the images, distortion issues, images weren't very sharp, and extreme indoor low light issues (it said that all indoor pics came out yellow, and macro shots had a blue tinge).

Basically, I use my camera for dolls, and cosplay, and that's about it. I want something affordable, fairly compact and durable, and good for closeups and indoor low light conditions. (Currently all my shots of Jean-Claude are outside because I can't get a good pic inside. x_x ) I'd love it if it didn't have every shot without a flash come out blurry like my current camera... Some sort of manual focus option is probably out of my price range. >_< I can dream, though. XDD Most of the other features I'm interested in seem to be fairly standard fare now, like video and easily being able to set it to over or underexpose the pics.

Ease of use is also a factor - I'm not a moron, but I'm also not a camera nut. I'd rather not have something so complicated that I can't use it properly. ^^;

So does anyone have any suggestions for me? Comments about the camera I'm returning tomorrow? I'd really appriciate any advice anyone has for me. <33



BTW, for those who don't know, Blair was shipped on Wednesday. I'm expecting him sometime in the next two days or so. No clue if EMS ships on sunday or not...

current mood: sad

(5 Wings | Fly Away)

Friday, August 10th, 2007
10:00 pm - Weekend plans!
As a few of you know, it's my birthday tomorrow. Work jerked me around, and I found out today that I don't have the time off I was hoping for to have the party we'd been planning. So, executive decision - we're going to chinatown tomorrow. Everyone's welcome. I'm going to be posting on TDAF as well to invite people. ^^

Where - Chinatown
When - Tomorrow, at two. We'll be in front of the chinatown center from 2-2:15. If you come late, you'll have to call my cell or Anikka's something. Anytime is fine, just give us a ring and find out where we are.

Dolls are welcome, but not necessary. We'll just be shopping and hanging out and probably be getting vietnamese food for dinner. All I want for my birthday (every year) is just to see my friends, as it always invariably fucks up and like, only two can make it. So come on out and hang out! All I ask is people try to get along, and not be loud fucktards. ^^

If you need my cell, post and ask for it. ^^

(7 Wings | Fly Away)

Thursday, August 9th, 2007
12:34 am - Man, I suck. T_T
Sorry I left this so long, guys. I know no one's going to be able to come now that I left it so late, but I couldn't set a date without looking at the schedual... and I have monday and tuesday off, so I can't call in sick saturday, or I'll have a four day weekend and they'll never buy it. I'm calling my parents tomorrow to see if they don't mind if I switch with a girl who gets off work at midnight, so I can have that saturday off.

Here's hoping! I'm trying my damnedest for the party to be sat-sun. T_T

current mood: tired

(2 Wings | Fly Away)

Sunday, July 29th, 2007
12:29 am - Gonna be tiring...
Schedual for the next week:

Get up at seven
Make lunch, shower, assorted morning getting ready things.
Catch bus at nine
Start work at 11:30
Finish at 8.
Catch ride from assorted awesome friends.
Get home around 10 usually, I think.
Go to sleep imediately.

Lather, rinse, repeat.

Don't expect to see me for the next week, and don't expect civility if you do.

On a similar note, I'll be at the Cosplay Picnic, so I'll see you there! XD I'll be sans costume, as with that schedual, I have NO chance of whipping up even a value village cosplay. Who else is comming? I want to see friends! anyotherknight, are you still comming, and are we still doing dinner afterwards? ^^ <3

I also have this monday off, so if anyone needs me/wants to chat, call me then. ^^

Day 30/31 of waiting for Blair. No word yet. I've been keeping an eye on other people waiting, and some of them are around day 45, so I might have quite a while yet. T_T

current mood: depressed

(Fly Away)

Friday, July 20th, 2007
1:27 am - Tiiiired...
Had an AWESOME day with anyotherknight today. Seriously, I can't image having more fun, unless we had certain bendy asian boys there to keep us company while we hung out. XDD Day filled with dolly, insane cats, Battle Royale, Gackt, sushi, and YOOOOOOUTOOOOOOOB. I was there for about as long as my shifts at work are, and man, I wish my shifts would fly by as fast as today did.

Next time, we will play Gackt playstation game, watch masquerade skits, and watch more awesome movies. ^^


List of things I promised to make note of or post:

Mitsukazu Mihara is the name of that artist. She's done the series Doll and The Embalmer, and the stand-alone mangas IC in a Sunflower, Beautiful People, Haunted House, and R.I.P. - Requiem in Phonybrian.

Hana Yori Danshi - http://arashianfiles.orgfree.com/tvshow.htm (fourth one in Matsujun's section)

Open your Heart - THE STRiPES - http://www.megaupload.com/?d=2GANNTFS
Loosey - THE STRiPES - http://www.megaupload.com/?d=VITCKBKV
Theme of THE STRiPES - THE STRiPES - http://www.megaupload.com/?d=RRHS0RDX
Sakura Sakura - Rin' - http://www.megaupload.com/?d=NZZJJX9F

Other people, feel free to take as well. I especially suggest Open your Heart and Sakura Sakura. ^^ If I forgot anything I was supposed to share, Octune, let me know. XD

I'll definately try to let you know with as much advance notice as possible next time I'm in the city. Thanks for having me over. ^^ If you're in the area again, let me know. We will gorge and hang out again. XDD We need to get together more than once every 4 months or so. T_T

current mood: sleepy

(5 Wings | Fly Away)

Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
1:38 am - Blar...
So, yeah. After setting up roadside assistance for people all day, what happens but the truck breaks down on the way home from work. I got off of work at 10... got home at about 12:30. T_T HATE MY LIFE.

Sorry I haven't been posting alot lately... been too tired, and after being on the computer all day, really sick of typing. Really missing people, though, especiallly Pinkee, and my other gaia friends. I used to talk to them for the better part of every day, and now, never. T_T Imma bad friend.

So, yeah... hate the job. Need to find something new. I was asked how to spell "NY-135" yesterday, and today, I had someone call me stupid when I didn't know how to open her gas cap, when SHE DOESN'T KNOW EITHER, and it's her damn car. >_< Need to get looking for replacement job. Jade, shut up. Don't want to hear any comments about work.

Really liking Hana Kimi live action. Gonna watch episode 2 right after I finish this post.

As of later today, it'll be 20 days waiting for Blair.

Octune, I'm all for hanging out. I have thursday off, and I'm done every other day at 10 if you wanted to hang out after work instead. Left a message on your cell with my phone numbers, or leave me a message here. ^^

current mood: tired

(15 Wings | Fly Away)

Friday, June 29th, 2007
1:31 am - Hoooooo!
Payment recieved! They're going to start working on Blair soon. ^^

current mood: jubilant

(10 Wings | Fly Away)

Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
2:13 am - I hate my mind.
Had a REALLY shitty day at work. The very thought of leaving the house to go to work was making me physically sick to my stomach, and it wasn't much better when I got there. MASSIVE computer errors disrupting me constantly, causing me to reboot SEVEN times today. >_< And people were not pleasant. I realized today that I just don't give a fuck about them or that place anymore. And it's funny, because Danny gave me three months until I started hanging up on people and shit, and it was three months today, and he's right... I just don't care. I'm not hanging up on people or anything... but I think I'm going to apply at the libraries and such sooner rather than later. Not in a rush to quit... but you know. It never hurts to look for a better job. ^^ Who knows? The rest of the week might be great and I'll wonder what my problem was. ^^



Okay, I watched that damn clip from my last entry at least 15 times, and I was thinking about it during the slow times at work. I was thinking about my dolls, and how I was right about all the guys being the aggressors.

Jean-Claude is constantly going after Blair and Natalie.
Ethan is corrupting Azami.
Kyosuke rescues Hannah.
And Brishen and Nimeth are just fuckbuddies. I don't get how their lack of a relationship works. XDD

And I was thinking, god, how incredibly one sided that is. T_T I was thinking of the guy in the clip, how strong he was, and determined not to be with the female dancer, but he was always there to catch her. You could see him despairing at being caught by her gentleness. How he was trying to remain aloof and distant.

And then it hit me. It's SHONE, and his fucking wife. >_< XDDD Shone, who was pretty much never allowed a chance to be on my doll list, the Dollish U-me, or Dollshe Saint, something along those lines. With his short black hair, volks metalic blue eyes, and his damn coldness, only being thawed by the one woman who never gave up, and stuck by him despite his better judgement. Pino's dad, and Kyosuke's brother-in-law.

I'm falling for him more and more as I keep thinking about it. T_T

Damn you, So You Think You Can Dance! T_T XD

The problem is, IF Shone got added to the list (And he's NOT going to be. He can stand outside the door and pound on it all he wants, he's not getting added to the list of characters!), what the hell do I do about his wife? She was supposed to have died not too long after Pino was born, and that's what made him turn into the emotionless frostman he is today, and the reason Pino grew up at her grandparent's temple. Would his wife only exist in flashback photostories? I wouldn't want a doll for so little plot, and I'd feel weird having her near the other dolls, since she's, you know, dead.

So now I have this couple I DON'T want to buy knocking at the door in my brain, when they're frankly impossible, and it's driving me nuts. T_T Not to mention I love the SD16 body for him, and I don't know of a head that'd match it. T_T

But oh, how I love frowny, pouty dolls, and this would be an excuse for one. It's just my luck that all my assholes have to be smiley, when I have a weak spot for frowners. Shakes fist at uncooperative, grinning characters

current mood: irritated

(17 Wings | Fly Away)

Tuesday, June 26th, 2007
1:11 am - Blargrarguhbwah.
Yeah, that about sums it up.

I'm feeling suprisingly down considering I had a really good day. Played alot of Castlevania, downloaded my gay-host-club-worker loves Kiriyama from battle royale movie, went out for dinner with an old coworker, picked up Blair's wig and clothes and some scrap fabric from Anikka. I don't know what's got me down and feeling so anxious... it could be just that I had a good day and know it can't last, or maybe it's because I'm quite dissapointed with Blair's wig. It's the perfect color and length, but it's not up to the construction quality I'm used to (Damn you viewpoints! XDD <3 ) and the fur seems like it'll be alot harder to style like the pics than I thought. Not to mention, I don't know if it'll fit. I'm not 100% familliar with Hound head sizes, but it doesn't fit on Jean-Claude AT ALL. T_T

BTW, that was the big suprise from my last post. I ordered my next doll, a Hound named Blair. ^^ I've been having INSANE troubles getting him, so here's hoping it works out from here on.


I friggin' love So you think you can dance. I miss dancing so much. T_T I have five years experience each in tap, jazz, and ballet. I haven't danced in almost 10 years, though (had to quit because of ankle injury) and I miss it like crazy. Especially when I watch this show. I'm nuts for contemporary... I wish I could move like that. But I got fat and out of shape and awkward and unlimber. T_T I'd love to take it up again someday.

I particularly love this clip from two weeks ago. It evokes the sort of masculine strength I adore, and it's the sort of romance that breaks my heart and I can't get enough. It vaguely makes me think of Kyosuke and Hannah. (It also makes me realize that all of my couples have the guy as the aggressor, and makes me want to make a new couple. NO MORE CHARACTERS!) Give it a watch, even if you don't know anything about dance. ^^




And BTW! Hi to all you people who added me to friendslist without saying anything! Jeez... you guys should have said something. If it wasn't for Kittysun, I wouldn't have seen any of you. ^^;;; So I look forward to reading your entries. ^^

current mood: sad

(6 Wings | Fly Away)

Wednesday, June 13th, 2007
12:58 am - Man, when everything fucks up, it does it all at once. >_
So yeah. I'm exhausted after my weekend of doing nothing, and really didn't want to go back to work. But I just made an order at Luts, needs more money, I can stay positive. Need to take the bus tomorrow to work... I hate the bus. But still, I can deal with it. Supposed to be damn hot. Can deal with that too.

Anikka told me on my break that Luts isn't taking paypal anymore. Okay. I can talk to them and try to work that through. Seems like people are saying Luts isn't honoring previous orders that state they're paypal. Okay. I can talk to them myself and see what they say. Paypal is saying my account isn't verified.

Breaking point.

God, damn it. >_< I fucking hate everything that breathes right now. I don't even know how to verify this without putting my bank account info on it, which I refuse to do. Anikka, help if possible, please? I'd really rather not have to make a new bank account just for online interactions, but I'm NOT putting my main bank account on Paypal.

I guess I'm just so dissapointed because I got paypal JUST to deal with luts. It's my first online purchase, and it's going all to hell. It's supremely frustrating, and makes me want to just cancel the damn order. >_< Every time I even think of the damn hobby, my stress goes up a notch. I need a fucking weekend already, and I have no clue when my next day off is. >_<

PLUS. I was so worked up about everything and trying to get food and get ready to tape Bottle Rocket, I forgot to turn off the input on the VCR and taped 23 minutes of black screen. >_< I've been waiting at least two years to see this movie again. >_<


PS - With one notable exception, I hate people from New Jersey. (ilucallie<3) What do you call a ruder, more impatient new yorker? Someone from new jersey. >_< LEARN TO SAY THANK YOU. On the other hand, cute chinese guy complimented the hell out of me and made my day. Honestly, today was great up until 8pm. Only had a couple bad calls.

current mood: infuriated

(11 Wings | Fly Away)

Monday, June 4th, 2007
1:46 pm - Lazy day...
God, I love weekends. I don't want to go back to work. XDDD But monies are so nice~ I want to buy Blair soon.

Went to con, had a blast. It was the least stressful con ever, which is nice considering it was so stresful actually getting to go in the first place. XD I didn't have to wait in any lines at all, since we didn't do the masq, watched it in our room, and Anikka went up early to get our hotel and prereg badges. Bought a shitload of awesome swag at a good price.

  • 2 Gothic & Lolita Bibles - $20 each instead of $42 each

  • Mitsukazu Mihara Artbook - $40 instead of $42

  • 3 Doll mangas by Mitsukazu Mihara - $8 each instead of $15 each

  • Beautiful People manga by Mitsukazu Mihara - $5 instead of $15

  • Clover #2 manga by Clamp - $10 instead of $22

  • 2 prints by different artists in Artists Alley - $10 each


So while my swag is pretty dorky (all paper products XD ) I'm really happy with it. ^^ I also got my brother a little Death Note notebook, and foam nunchucks for his birthday, and I got my mom a pretty bracelet. ^^ I think I need a new bookshelf, though... I'm completely out of space, stacking books on every available surface, and now I go and buy all of these. XDD I also got a new white vest for Jean-Claude that's VERRAH sexy from darthmarysue, which I will pay her for the next time I see her. XD ^^ <3

I was so glad to see everyone there... it blows that I have such awesome friends, and get to see them so rarely. Even just passing someone in the street and yelling "hi" really makes my day. ^^ So I was really glad to see tookumade (even if I finally found her in the bathroom of all places XDD ), darthmarysue, viewpoints, flutter_bywing, leira, linzb0t, little_finch and Sheena, nightrays, mekou, and stillvisions. Among numerous others that I don't have on LJ. XDD I was sad that I didn't happen to run into boxxer_auction (but I did see you strut across stage in the masq! We were cheering you on from the hotel room. ^^ Even though the broadcast in the hotel was several hours time delayed. XDD ), Rob, or Maddie. I can't believe I missed you guys all weekend. T_T

Anyways, behind the cut is a pic of my swag for those who are interested, a really funny comedian that you all should watch, and a video of Kiefer Sutherland just for my Pinkee-luff. ^^ <333 When Anikka showed me it, I knew I had to show you. XDD And BTW, Lousie, when you get your pics up, if you could let me know or send me the one of me, I'd really appriciate it. I also finished that book a couple days ago... please tell me there's more? XDD

Behold the humor and swag! ^^Collapse )

current mood: amused

(12 Wings | Fly Away)

Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007
1:14 pm - Jubilation!
I CAN GO TO CON!!!!!

My team leader called me to let me know this morning. Apparently, she's know since before she left work on THURSDAY, and just forgot to tell me. >_< XDD But I don't care! I can go to con!

Now to get back to frantically sewing before I have to go to work.

Anikka - In case Linz forgets to ask you, can you dl the Lucky Star op and email it to me? It's up on Nipponsei, and you know I can't download from them. Wanna come over after game and when I'm done work on wednesday to record shit so I can make the file? Since you don't have to work and all the next day... maybe we can do a midnight grocery run, too... it's up to you, really. If that's no good, we'll have to find another time you can come and record.

current mood: jubilant

(12 Wings | Fly Away)

Monday, May 21st, 2007
9:11 pm - Leaps and bounds
I actually finished a good chunk of my costume today. I did all of the coat-dress except for hemming, half a zipper, the collar, and a fake pocket on the front. And ironing, of course. Maybe some topstitching to make it look all nice and finished, and I need to sew buttons on the tabs on the back.

The skirt is worked out, cut out, and just needs to be sewn up, have the ruffle added, and do the waistband.

Still need to get my hair cut and dyed - appointment will be made tomorrow.

Boot covers still have to be done, too... at least I have the zippers for them. Had to make a dash for fabricland yesterday when we realized mom got the wrong kind of zipper. >_< And today I ran out of thread and had to use a different burgandy for some of the interior work... I need to get the right colour again before I can hem the sleeves or do other topstitching details. Damn you holiday weekend? Why are you right before con? It's some sort of vast conspiracy to keep thread from me.

So, while I was maybe 5% done my costume yesterday, I'd say I'm 75% done at least now. ^^ This is the fastest I've ever made anything. I've never done a whole dress in a day before. XDDD

Did you guys hear about that free burger at Harvey's thing on Con Sunday? Sweet deal. XD The line's going to be HUGE. XDDD

Had a great time at Lee's party yesterday. Glad I took a break from costuming to go. Fireworks and booze and snacks and wii. Great combination. ^^

current mood: chipper

(Fly Away)

Friday, May 18th, 2007
12:15 am - CON!
As of this point, RIGHT NOW, I might actually be able to come to con. I'll know by tuesday at the latest, hopefully. ^^ As it is, I'm going to pretend I can come.

Things To Do:
  • Cut out fabric and actually make the damn dress

  • Go and get zippers, possibly trim, and either buy skirt or fabric to make skirt (and then make it)

  • Get haircut (trim, really) and dye hair

  • Make bootcovers


Does anyone have any advice on making boot covers? I've never done anything like that before. Jean-Claude will have to go sans-costume, since I definately don't have time to make him something. Tiny Hagi would be cute, but really no time. XD

I'm thinking about getting unlimited text messages for a month so I can text at con - For now, I can recieve them but can't send them. Anyone who wants to know my number to get ahold of me there, just say so. ^^

darthmarysue, Anikka wants to borrow those books you lent me. ^^

I'll post up with if I'm actually going to con as soon as I know it. ^^

current mood: hopeful

(7 Wings | Fly Away)

Saturday, May 12th, 2007
12:43 am - >_>
So, yeah. 'Sbeen a while. Sorry about that.

Pink, I miss you so damn much. >_< We really need to figure out a time that we can both get online and chat. I have sunday and monday off... are either of those days good for you?


Schedual for next week, for those who care: Sun-mon off, tues-sat 12:30pm-9pm.


I've been really busy with work. I spend all day on the phone and on computers, so when I get home, really, the last thing I want to do is talk to people. I pretty much just spend the time I'm not at work reading, catching up on anime, or cooking.

And now that I am posting, I really don't know what to say. I've been feeling profoundly unmotivated lately... I debated calling in sick today just because I felt icky. Not sick really, but lack of appetite, slightly dizzy, and just didn't want to get up and have to deal with people. I've been told I have good people skills, but it's such an effort for me to go out and talk to people I don't know and be "Outdoors Sikona" as opposed to "indoors hermit sikona". It's worth putting in the effort at cons and doll meets and when I go out to the movies and such, but being sociable is just really draining. I just kinda want to sit around and stare at the wall for an hour or two.

darthmarysue, These books you lent me are the gayest thing ever. I didn't realize there'd be so much, or you know, ANY man love in it. But srsly, if they aren't fucking by the end of this book, I'm going to be pissed. XDDD I'm about two-thirds done the second one... do you have any more? And what did you want me to lend you? ALSO! You were supposed to send me an email about taking over your unneeded room at con... Did you send it? Anikka said you did, but I didn't recieve it. Did you send it to my hotmail account?

Really need to call the school and find out what I need to go back before I talk myself out of it. I've pretty much just been getting negative feedback from my parents about the whole thing. I don't think they seem to realize that even if I don't know what I'll end up doing with this program, at least it's something I can see myself finishing, instead of getting disgusted with the whole thing and running off so I don't have to deal with people anymore.

Bought book on how to swear in japanese... it's damn funny. I'm going to get that book on kansai dialect the second I can - I want to sound like a japanese newfie. XDD

current mood: frustrated

(14 Wings | Fly Away)

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